red and white are indistinguishable in the darkroom

hi i need glasses

hello... i am farsighted and my sight has been getting worse with time. i spent most of my time with terrible headaches and its becoming more and more difficult to focus my eyes and im afraid that if i dont get glasses ill keep losing my sight.
my mom bought me glasses last year but they gave me headaches and nausea, i told a friend and he said that i shouldnt use them anymore. turns out the place where i got them is known for giving incorrect eye tests lol. these glasses were considered cheap and cost me 68$ aprox. i asked my friend how much did his cost him and he said that they were 120$ + the eye test at 14$. i still havent been able to get a job and i cant ask my mom for money bcs we are barely getting by as it is. i didnt want to ask for donations because i know everyone is struggling rn but im genuinely scared.

any ammount of money helps, please boost if you can't donate.

/paypalme/shurikenvicu

worst mom

does anyone here use artfol?

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anyways

I made a painting but cant get a decent photo of it and thats what pisses me off about doing traditional art

at least we get a tasty dessert ♡

i might be addicted to pepsi dark vanilla

mier commented on this post:
is babka like one of these cartoons characters that have a candy wrapper, a fly and a silver and gold coin in their pocket?

i mean 50c is my pocket AND my bank account combined but yeah

so

um

i might have over estimated my budgeting skills so i am still poor

so if you want me to have some pepsi dark vanilla i still have my commissions open

and i draw better now

BPD traits - are people with BPD good or bad?

There's a giant stigma out there around BPD. Our mental illness doesn't make us want to hurt others, but it makes it harder for us to handle our emotions, including the negative ones, it also subjects us to overwhelming fear of abandonment and distorts the way we view people around us, making us unintentionally manipulative and emotionally unstable, which can be a huge drain of our loved ones as they're struggling to maintain their own stability. There's also, apparently, the romantization of BPD. There isn't a lot of it, and it doesn't involve romanticizing potentially toxic behaviours. Instead, this romantization suggests that people with BPD are the only ones that are capable of a true, deeper love, extreme loyality to the point of complete selflessness - something one desires in a partner or a friend, and something that people without BPD just aren't able to feel. And high sensitivity of people with BPD often leads them to becoming some sort of an artist, and the romantization of mental illness in artists isn't new.

So, does BPD make you bad? Or good? Do positives outweigh the negatives?

Short answer, no, no, wrong question. BPD doesn't make you bad or good, it makes you show symptoms of BPD, just as depression doesn't make you bad or good, just depressed.

Now let's first examine the character traits we think are good or bad. Loyality, for example. Imagine a partner who is loving and loyal to you - but maybe a little to extreme? They are always there to help you before you even say you need help, they jump ahead to save you from various troubles and always end up in trouble themselves, they seem to put their life on the line for you and you don't know how to handle it. You feel like you owe them, but they never give you the chance to repay this debt. Their life slowly collapses as they neglect their needs to please you, and you feel like you are responsible for it. You're overwhelmed, but you can't walk away - they love you so much, you're afraid it will break their heart and literally kill them.

Now imagine having a partner who is selfish. Well, at least that's what people say when they learn that your partner says " I put myself and my needs first". They've cut toxic people out of their life and they'll encourage you to do the same. As they give you flowers and see your happy smile, they say "well, seeing you smile makes me happy, so i wanna see it more. And seeing you sad makes me upset, but now you're not sad, and I'm not upset anymore". You don't have to worry about them getting in trouble or getting hurt, because they know better to take care of themselves. They will tell you what they want for their birthday without you trying to guess and getting scared to guess wrong.

Okay, okay, I see, you say, character traits are complex, we just saw a bad partner who's loyal and a good partner who's selfish, now who of them has BPD?

And the answer is both of them can have it! Also both of them can be mentally fine. See, first of all, BPD manifests very differently. Secondly, it doesn't really give you... character traits? I mean, it heavily influences your behaviour, but... BPD can make me feel intense love and also intense hatred for the same people in different circumstances - so should i call myself "loving" or "hateful"? Another symptom of mine is feeling emptiness in place where my personality should be - do i even HAVE character traits? If you insist everything, including you, must be inherently good or bad, that is so-called "black-and-white thinking" - a symptom of BPD and other mental illnesses. Here's a simple test for you - bad people don't usually question themselves at all.

So I'm a good person, you ask? Yeah!

Oh, you have one more question. What is it? Are you a good person because of BPD, or despite it?

Neither. You're a good person with BPD. Just a person with BPD.

Everything else is up to you. Go on, create yourself.

oc time.....TWO

im procrastinating and decided to do my artfight stuff in advance :|

bonbon is not as pink or soft as when i was little and that makes me sad sometimes

Had a zoom call with my Dr and he ask about my cats and I got to show him Frank being a weird ass live and she was sitting like this.

ok. do any of yall see spiders in holes or stains/imperfections on walls? ill be in my bed and look at the wall in front and ill see a spider, moving its legs but when i go to inspect it its just a nail. this happens a lot to me and sometimes ill get really frightened because i hate spiders even tho i always stand up and there are not spiders there.

trans rights are human rights

Alucard

an aunt's old garfield plushie

i dont know exactly how old he is but he must be 20+ years old. there are parts in his body where you can see the original orange color he had and the difference is...

Like this

i wanted to do the 30daysofautisticart and i remembered that i dont really. do fanart or watch series

an aunt's old garfield plushie

i dont know exactly how old he is but he must be 20+ years old. there are parts in his body where you can see the original orange color he had and the difference is...

an aunt's old garfield plushie

my cousin offered me his 50 dollars mouse at 15 and im 🤔

i might feel like shit but at least i can spend time watching vinny vinesauce play some games :)
-nier, clueless

naiad asked:

If you're able to make clothes for your stuffed bunny I'd love to see them! I've been considering making little sweaters for my Furbies since they don't have any arms lol

🥺🥺🥺 yes ill show them... i made a onesie for them in christmas but i cant sew very straight and it looks kinda bad LOL... you should make them sweaters! toys with homemade clothes give such a good feeling 🥺

First week of this hashtag is headcannons, which I don't normally have, but… Perhaps Somsnosa has a special interest in bugs

naiad knitting tales makes me want to put the knitting sticks that i got from my aunts room to use, may she rest in peace but i wouldnt know where to start

So I do loom knitting because it's just what's easiest for me, but definitely just check out different youtube channels and videos that say they're for beginners!

There are so many different knitters on youtube, so just look around until you find someone who describes things in a way that you're comfortable with and that makes sense. The first couple videos I watched really had me confused until I found someone who really did everything step-by-step until the very end of the project.

https://www.youtube.com/user/GoodKnitKisses
GoodKnitKisses has a lot of loom videos which is why I followed her, but she also does crochet and regualr knitting and has a ton of really detailed videos and "knit along with me" videos where you can just do exactly what she does the whole time :)

It's an incredibly rewarding hobby and especially if you're already interested in yarn crafts!

I believe @phantomflame03 on here is also into knitting and does it the traditional style so she may be able to offer some advice too!

Best of luck if you do decide to get into it! I'd suggest trying small thing first and going from there c:

thank you very much bestie <3

Behold... Pupbee...

*brings back the most reblogged art post on waterfall dot social