mier(él/they/them)
coffee
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babushka(he/she, он/она/)
Time ago

GrailKnights - Cthulhu

In the city of Rlyeh
Lies Cthulhu and awaits his prey
Another poor soul will surely make its way

The mist grew thick shivers on my skin
I tried to run but the air grew thin
Great Cthulhu reached out for me

Hellish fear is devouring my heart
As our ship's slowly falling apart

Cthulhu is rising
Like thousand serpents from the sea
Cthulhu is reaching out for me

A great black stone emerges from sea
More dead than alive I meet my destiny
Cthulhu's tomb lies in front of me

His lust for blood burns in my eyes
An image of man and monster in disguise
From now on evil shall rule my life

Hellish fear is devouring my heart
As our ship's slowly falling apart

Cthulhu is rising

Like thousand serpents from the sea

Cthulhu is reaching out for me


mier(él/they/them)
naiad(she/her or they/them)
Time ago

at least we get a tasty dessert ♡


mier(él/they/them)
babushka(he/she, он/она/)
Time ago
babushka

i might be addicted to pepsi dark vanilla

babushka

mier commented on this post:
is babka like one of these cartoons characters that have a candy wrapper, a fly and a silver and gold coin in their pocket?

i mean 50c is my pocket AND my bank account combined but yeah


babushka

so

um

i might have over estimated my budgeting skills so i am still poor

so if you want me to have some pepsi dark vanilla i still have my commissions open

and i draw better now



mier(él/they/them)
timeskip(ve/vir/vis)
Time ago

BPD traits - are people with BPD good or bad?

babushka

There's a giant stigma out there around BPD. Our mental illness doesn't make us want to hurt others, but it makes it harder for us to handle our emotions, including the negative ones, it also subjects us to overwhelming fear of abandonment and distorts the way we view people around us, making us unintentionally manipulative and emotionally unstable, which can be a huge drain of our loved ones as they're struggling to maintain their own stability. There's also, apparently, the romantization of BPD. There isn't a lot of it, and it doesn't involve romanticizing potentially toxic behaviours. Instead, this romantization suggests that people with BPD are the only ones that are capable of a true, deeper love, extreme loyality to the point of complete selflessness - something one desires in a partner or a friend, and something that people without BPD just aren't able to feel. And high sensitivity of people with BPD often leads them to becoming some sort of an artist, and the romantization of mental illness in artists isn't new.

So, does BPD make you bad? Or good? Do positives outweigh the negatives?

Short answer, no, no, wrong question. BPD doesn't make you bad or good, it makes you show symptoms of BPD, just as depression doesn't make you bad or good, just depressed.

Now let's first examine the character traits we think are good or bad. Loyality, for example. Imagine a partner who is loving and loyal to you - but maybe a little to extreme? They are always there to help you before you even say you need help, they jump ahead to save you from various troubles and always end up in trouble themselves, they seem to put their life on the line for you and you don't know how to handle it. You feel like you owe them, but they never give you the chance to repay this debt. Their life slowly collapses as they neglect their needs to please you, and you feel like you are responsible for it. You're overwhelmed, but you can't walk away - they love you so much, you're afraid it will break their heart and literally kill them.

Now imagine having a partner who is selfish. Well, at least that's what people say when they learn that your partner says " I put myself and my needs first". They've cut toxic people out of their life and they'll encourage you to do the same. As they give you flowers and see your happy smile, they say "well, seeing you smile makes me happy, so i wanna see it more. And seeing you sad makes me upset, but now you're not sad, and I'm not upset anymore". You don't have to worry about them getting in trouble or getting hurt, because they know better to take care of themselves. They will tell you what they want for their birthday without you trying to guess and getting scared to guess wrong.

Okay, okay, I see, you say, character traits are complex, we just saw a bad partner who's loyal and a good partner who's selfish, now who of them has BPD?

And the answer is both of them can have it! Also both of them can be mentally fine. See, first of all, BPD manifests very differently. Secondly, it doesn't really give you... character traits? I mean, it heavily influences your behaviour, but... BPD can make me feel intense love and also intense hatred for the same people in different circumstances - so should i call myself "loving" or "hateful"? Another symptom of mine is feeling emptiness in place where my personality should be - do i even HAVE character traits? If you insist everything, including you, must be inherently good or bad, that is so-called "black-and-white thinking" - a symptom of BPD and other mental illnesses. Here's a simple test for you - bad people don't usually question themselves at all.

So I'm a good person, you ask? Yeah!

Oh, you have one more question. What is it? Are you a good person because of BPD, or despite it?

Neither. You're a good person with BPD. Just a person with BPD.

Everything else is up to you. Go on, create yourself.


mier(él/they/them)
babushka(he/she, он/она/)
Time ago

oc time.....TWO

im procrastinating and decided to do my artfight stuff in advance :|


mier(él/they/them)
star-rice(he/him)
Time ago

Had a zoom call with my Dr and he ask about my cats and I got to show him Frank being a weird ass live and she was sitting like this.


mier(él/they/them)
coffee
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coffee
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kvistwig(It/Its \ they/them)
Time ago

Somsnosa, squatting while looking at some bugs. Without looking up, she says

First week of this hashtag is headcannons, which I don't normally have, but… Perhaps Somsnosa has a special interest in bugs


mier(él/they/them)
naiad(she/her or they/them)
Time ago
mier

naiad knitting tales makes me want to put the knitting sticks that i got from my aunts room to use, may she rest in peace but i wouldnt know where to start

naiad

So I do loom knitting because it's just what's easiest for me, but definitely just check out different youtube channels and videos that say they're for beginners!

There are so many different knitters on youtube, so just look around until you find someone who describes things in a way that you're comfortable with and that makes sense. The first couple videos I watched really had me confused until I found someone who really did everything step-by-step until the very end of the project.

https://www.youtube.com/user/GoodKnitKisses
GoodKnitKisses has a lot of loom videos which is why I followed her, but she also does crochet and regualr knitting and has a ton of really detailed videos and "knit along with me" videos where you can just do exactly what she does the whole time :)

It's an incredibly rewarding hobby and especially if you're already interested in yarn crafts!

I believe @phantomflame03 on here is also into knitting and does it the traditional style so she may be able to offer some advice too!

Best of luck if you do decide to get into it! I'd suggest trying small thing first and going from there c:


mier

thank you very much bestie <3



mier(él/they/them)
kvistwig(It/Its \ they/them)
Time ago

Behold... Pupbee...

babushka

*brings back the most reblogged art post on waterfall dot social



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naiad(she/her or they/them)
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kvistwig(It/Its \ they/them)
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A fawn coloured dog with one brown eye, one blue eye, a blue collar, and feathering on his legs, belly, and tail.

⬆️ Animal who lives with me


mier(él/they/them)
coffee
Time ago

yeah very questionable but that's as good as i can do Right Now


mier(él/they/them)
coffee
Time ago

St. Francois Fair
2017

redbubble | carrd | ko-fi
message me for custom photo prints ♥


mier(él/they/them)
roar
Time ago

California Island Fox

Lunch paint while at work. Testing out the drawing capabilities on Samsung Note 20 (it feels pretty good)


mier(él/they/them)
babushka(he/she, он/она/)
Time ago
chicory

The boat
It got unstuck
YES! YES!
The boat is free!

mcatnip


babushka

well it allegedly got stuck again because the winds turned it back. are you happy now


mier

how did the wind even manage to turn a boat that big.



mier(él/they/them)
babushka(he/she, он/она/)
Time ago

A man glares at the camera and holds a guitar, as if poised to hit something with it.

it's a productive painting day huh


mier(él/they/them)
coffee
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mier(él/they/them)
coffee
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Ganondorf! he's so fun to play


mier(él/they/them)
shishka
Time ago

stop callin', stop callin', i don't wanna talk anymore


mier(él/they/them)
coffee
Time ago

weird faceless creature from a dream i had the other night


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naiad(she/her or they/them)
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